19.2- Beautiful…?

'In that case, how do you expect me to love someone?" He asked softly, thumb securing around my cheek to get lost in the mystique silvery ocean. 'It's not that I am incapable of loving but I don't want to love anyone in the first place. I cannot allow myself to fall for someone knowing I will be neglected for my nature. It's better to avoid affliction rather than searching for a cure, Eileen." He explained but the softer his voice went, the heartbreaking sensation it provided to my delicate emotions. He is proving countless times why agreeing to be with his partner is the worst mistake of my life. 'And for it you will leave me in this hell to suffer? All of your own selfishness?" I asked in a broken tone, holding his shirt, making an almost crying face as my eyes teared up. 'I didn't ask nor want you to attach your heart with mine, Eileen. You are here for my satisfaction, to quench my thirst. Don't flatter yourself under the label of affection." He responded coldly which broke my heart. Increasing my urge to run away from him immensely. 'You are heartless. An insensitive bastard who loves being who he is. You want to remain like this so I remain a prey and don't become your weakness." I growled, hitting his chest but he didn't bulge. A tear rolled down my cheek. He steals a portion of my feelings and smears it. I thought being myself wouldn't be this difficult but he was actually killing my emotions. 'To you, loving will only lead to weakness and since you are a sculpture of unbreakable stone, how can you allow yourself to be broken… moreover by a woman, right?" I asked in disbelief, almost trying to push him which gained attention but I was utterly furious. His eyes narrowed as if my words were wrong and this is not his perception about love but he didn't try to correct me. He didn't bother to tell me why. 'Don't touch me." I hissed, trying to push him but his grip tightened, pulling us close enough to feel the heat in the gap striking together. 'Eileen. I don't hate you, I don't love you either nor I ever will but the fact that you are my weak point remains the same." He growled, holding me possessively. Confounded at his response I opened my mouth to ask but before my mind could register, he pulled me up from the ground and hugged me abruptly. My eyes widened, shocked that my body was immobilized. Not used to his endearing actions, I remained stunned, mouth gaped, eyes popped when he was holding me firmly. 'I don't have anything personal towards you, Eileen but since you have provided me with my deepest desire. It's my obligation to fulfill the faintest dreams you have left; I haven't forgotten." He whispered seriously. My mind went blank, unable to react according to his words. He pulled away slowly, putting me down again as he moved back, pointing in the other direction where I saw Jacob who was holding a camera and took a picture of us. I almost forgot, I told him I wanted us to take a picture like this before the Eiffel Tower. I told him I don't want it anymore. I just don't. 'I told you, I don't want it anymore. I don't want to fulfill any of my dreams with you." I hissed in a low tone to not get attention this time. Arching his brows perfectly, he narrowed his eyes, confused but I continued. 'Do you think I am a dog that you will reward for being good, for satisfying you? I told you, I don't need your affection. Don't fulfill my dreams. Don't kill the faintest shred I have left in me, Sebastian." I whispered, voice breaking as a few tears rolled down my cheek. 'Since you cannot understand, you will never know how badly one counterfeit hope hurts. You might not have felt anything but I gave my all to us, Sebastian and your pretense is killing me faster than your fear." Unable to control myself further, tears stole my ability to see as I pulled away, covering my mouth, trying not to cry but a silent sob escaped my lips but this devil cannot understand. Feeling is a foreign concept. He is a King of mercilessness who feels obliged to reward his slave for being good and he did. He could never understand. The confusion on his face gave it all. 'Just leave me be, I don't need your mercy. You don't have to fulfill any of my dreams anymore, I don't need it." Growling, I pushed my hairs back and walked away, going away from the crowd to somewhere alone to refrain from my cries and control my overflowing sensations. But, the moment I stepped into a secluded place, his arm grabbed me, standing behind me, scowling on my neck. Sending a terrible omen down my spine by his superior presence, scaring me for the consequence. 'Don't overuse my liberation, Eileen." He snarled, tightening his grip on my arm, making me wince but I closed my teary eyes, trying to act strong. 'You better be grateful for what I have granted you, Not many of them are fortunate enough to possess this under my possession." He growled in a whisper, pressing his chest harder against my back. My legs felt weak, anticipating his strenuous actions, 'Don't… I didn't ask you." I whispered, sniffling, wiping my eyes to look back into his eyes. Frowning, displeased at my action of confronting him, he pushed me away, 'Fine then." Resonance turned dominant, he took a step closer, grabbing my arm, dragging me back to his castle. I didn't dare to resist, not wanting to enrage him more than I already did or else I would face a lethal outcome beyond my ability to bear. He threw me inside the room, I could feel an ache traveling to my core as he glared at me, pointing his finger at me. 'Now, stay the fuck here." He threatened, closing the door, locking me inside the room to curse my fate which chained my life to a ruthless man like him.