40.2- Divulgence

My worry was enhanced immensely, I didn't know how to react. My heart was thumping abnormally to perceive what would Sebastian do to me if I did something which he resented. 'I have told them about you being on birth control. You who loved kids suddenly don't want to have one. You who had countless dreams before her marriage, all of them vanished. What did he do, Eileen?" Sofia asked strictly, telling them everything she had noticed but kept quiet about it. 'Sofia…" My eyes widened, my perturbation enhanced, freezing my soul in dread. 'Eileen, we just want to help you, he has restricted your life. You cut the call instantly whenever he comes. You gasp in his presence. To pretend both have to act and you don't at all. He can't always cover the truth. We have seen how you react in his presence now." Papa said, trying to make me understand but it pricked a tear near my eyes. I was losing my breath, Sebastian's reaction was terrifying me. I can't lose my parents but I want to tell them what I was going through. I can't fake happiness. 'Tell us, Eileen, please, we just want to help…" Sofia whispered as well, Pressurizing me to open my mouth and not bear the pain alone. Unable to keep my anguish inside, a tear rolled down my cheek, closing my eyes, I pulled away roughly, 'I.. can't…" I whispered in a broken tone, hugging my sides. 'Why not?" Mother asked, rubbing my back to ease me but shivering, I swallowed hard, gathering my courage and began to say, 'Because…" Lifting my teary gaze, I stared at Father, 'S-Sebastian is…" I was shaking from fear, collecting all my bravery in one place in order to tell them what malevolence I had faced till now, tell them who Sebastian truly was, 'Black Death… the second biggest leader of the underworld… He threatened me if I ever said anything to you guys about it.." Showing Sebastian's true face behind the mask of a gallant businessman, telling his dark reality, about his threat, 'He will kill you." Whispering, I looked down again, hugging myself closer, breathless. Telling them was not the harsh part but the perception of consequences of it was. 'What!?" They all gasped. To say they were astonished would be an understatement. Exactly my reaction to know of all people in the world, my husband turned out to be the Black Death. 'You do realize what you are saying? Do you have any idea what demon Black Death is? He is the most dangerous man in England." Father asked vaguely. He thought I didn't know what I was speaking but I was well aware of the words I had spoken. By far I had seen the ruler of the underworld- Plague Doctor, his wife. Fifth mafia ace, Red Beast and my own husband was the second and the most ruthless leader- Why would I fucking joke about it!? Shutting my eyes, I sniffled, wiping the tear which brimmed, telling them everything, 'That's him… It's Sebastian… He told me all those leaders put up a wrong image of a businessman before the world to trick them while being a monster from the shadows…" How flawlessly he charmed me to marry him, thinking I would find the world of fairytale there but all I gathered was misery, fear and dominance. 'He.. he doesn't think twice before killing people… He killed the owner of that inn just because he dared to hold my hand… He killed Rick too…Rick didn't do anything.. He shot him before my eyes! It was him who shot my foot, not Rick!" I told them what I couldn't back then, breaking into a sob, clutching my chest to indicate my pain. Rick was innocent, he killed him right before my eyes without a second thought. He shot me too, he was a heartless beast. I married the wrong man. Tears began to fall down as I held onto my Mother, sobbing, telling her everything. 'I am terrified of him, he wouldn't let me leave. He calls me his prey, enjoys scaring me. He did all this to trick us all into marrying me… so he could chain me… hurt me emotionally… I am scared… he had terrified me…" I wailed, pulling my hair, crying my heart out. I had kept these talks inside me for so long, I wanted to tell someone about my ache. 'Eileen, Oh dear, oh dear. What have we done?" Papa and Mama began to cry as well when they saw me like this, hugging me tightly. They were horrified after knowing that I married a criminal. 'He is so bad, Papa. I am so scared. I don't want to go back but he won't let me leave. He would hurt you guys if I didn't obey him…" I whispered, narrowing my eyes, pleading with my parents to save me from him. Was a loveless marriage worth it? Was feeding his fear worth it? Was any of it worth it knowing my heart was going to break in the end? 'I never fathomed that behind this facade a monster would reside. What he had done to my daughter." Mother sobbed, kissing my hands, finding themselves guilty but none of us knew who he was. He hid everything behind his charm professionally. 'Please don't let him know, I don't want anything to happen to you guys. He warned me to return in two days. I don't want him to hurt you, He won't let me leave." I cried, holding Papa's shirt, shaking my head in denial. I didn't want to go back but I didn't want him to hurt my parents because of me either or face his wrath myself. Was asking for a normal married life too much? 'How do you expect us to send you back to that hell, Eileen? You are not going anywhere. We won't let you stay with that criminal anymore." Papa enunciated, wiping his tears and mine, hugging me tightly to shelter me from any upcoming harm. 'Don't. Please don't. You guys have no idea what he is capable of. No one could go against him, he rules. No one would dare to raise their voice." I whispered, pulling away abruptly, horrified. 'I didn't tell you to amplify my trouble, I would pay for your actions and I no longer hold the strength to confront his fury. I couldn't. So please just don't." I begged, trembling violently to think what would happen if he came to know. After witnessing his softness, his dominance was hurting more. His hardness was affecting much more than it did before and I didn't want it. 'Don't be ridiculous, Eileen, how do you expect us to leave you to that beast?!" Sofia yelled, tears glistening in her eyes, not believing how we both used to admire him and he turned out to be an emotionless criminal. 'You guys don't understand! You can't do anything. No one is capable of fighting him…" I whispered, joining my hands before them to stop but Papa loses his mind whenever I get hurt. His is my Father after all, if he won't protect me then who will? 'But, I will! I won't let that man harm my daughter anymore! He can't break my daughter! I won't let him!" Papa yelled, utterly outraged, willing to do everything to save me from him but I knew it was not possible. 'Sofia, take Eileen back to her room. She is not going anywhere nor I will let it." Papa enunciated, not listening to anything, determined to save me from my inevitable fate. But, all on my mind was- What would Sebastian do to me if he came to know?