63.2- Notorious, Once Again

'That's the most beautiful thing about it, Sebastian. It all happened, it passed…" She began to say mockingly, sadly, turning to me, pointing her finger at my chest. 'Yet you engraved it on your body to remind me about those times." Growling, she expressed the reason why she was outraged, because I carved a reminder on my skin but- I ask- 'What difference could it make? Just like you are finding your peace in telling Asad about our personal matters, I found mine in this." I needed solace too, I needed punishment too because as far as my cognition could extent, only a question arose in my heart; What did you ever do for her happiness? Nothing. 'I wanted to tell someone so I told him. Couldn't finish but I definitely will." Muttering, she shifted her hand to leave her wrist but I brought her closer. I didn't know how this would benefit me but all I could do was to place faith. I pulled her but she placed her hand in between to create some distance, touching my exposed skin, my heart, causing it to beat rapidly to the point I bet she could feel the booming sound of it. 'As if it could change anything. If you want to revive your scars then tell me, I will gladly do it myself." I flashed my usual smirk, tracing my finger on the side of her face, extremely slow. 'Each moment I spent with you had always been unknowingly unforgettable for me, I remember everything. From our first meeting to your first dread. All of it…" I murmured, my smirk grew wider when each memory of ours was found vividly in my core. I had no idea it existed so clearly but when my mind wandered, I realized how perfectly I remembered it all. 'You are not the only one, Sebastian." And my soul felt solace when I realized I was not the only person who was clinging onto not-so-sweet memories of ours. 'So, Where did you stop?" I asked seductively, stopping at the corner of her lips, staring intensely at her lips, hardly controlling my desire to pull her closer. I wanted to rake my fingers in her hair and pull her into a kiss, I wanted to kiss her so badly. 'At the Eiffel Tower." She whispered cautiously, shivering about the next part of our honeymoon. 'It was the first time where you smiled after knowing my true identity. I love that picture of yours." I whispered, slowly tracing my thumb over her lips, inviting me. My smirk faded gradually, parting my finger with a glint of woe. 'It could have been a beautiful memory if you hadn't ruined it." I whispered, if she hadn't run away back there, I might have… leave it. 'Nothing is beautiful with you, Sebastian." Scowling, she hit my chest, averting her gaze. 'From these scars, to what happened on our honeymoon, all your actions have done nothing but hurt me. I never wanted to do this to you." She whispered, closing her eyes. Lowering her head and resting it over my chest, shutting her eyes yet she refused to embrace me. 'And you have no idea how the thought, the sight of you running away before my eyes terrified me. When you were running, I felt my life slipping." Whispering, my one hand moved to her hair and the other on her back, embracing her. Closing my eyes, the warmth of her body gave me the lull of the world. 'But, you were still a detestable person back then." She growled, hitting my chest, trying to pull away from me. Her action caused me to grip her waist firmly accompanied by my other hand around her neck. She shivered but neglecting my touch was never her capability. 'Who are you lying to? You crave for my love, for me." I brought the deniable reality in her ears, head against her followed by heavy breaths. 'You confessed yourself, we both know, I was never hateful to you, you had always loved me. You couldn't leave me." Humming, I bit her earlobe, the depth of her words remained in my heart forever, I remember them clearly but I buried them and now no longer wished to. 'Took you long enough to realize it." Mumbling, her angry gaze refused to stare back into mine. 'Come, leave it." I sighed, pulling away a little. 'Why don't you skip all the parts and get to my favorite one, hmm?" Humming, I caressed her slowly, softly, curling my lips upwards. I didn't tell her but deep down, I could tell she knew what my favorite part was. Our favorite part. I wished I could have continued that day. I didn't want to stop but I wanted and the things I wanted to say were still in my heart. She tried to look away, 'Don't look away now." 'You know it you cannot escape my domain anymore, Eileen. Your fate is sealed with me. We cannot go back to those times anymore." Softly but sternly, I proclaimed, pressing her against the bedpost. "You are no longer my deepest desire." Losing my breaths, my hands held her rigidly, dying to touch her more, nuzzling to her neck, losing my identity in her proximity. "You are my need, Eileen." Growling, tightening my grip to share the heat traveling in my body, I wanted her to feel the same impatience as mine. Gasping inaudibly, she tapped my chest, 'Stop, Sebastian." Is my touch that unwanted? I stopped instantly, not wanting to do anything which could make her uncomfortable anymore. Sighing deeply in disappointment, maintaining a fair distance. 'Okay. Anything else?" I said, putting my hand in the air, disheartened. 'Tsk." Scoffing, she sat on the bed, clutching the sheets firmly. I sighed and wore my shirt, not extending this conversation further, we both laid down to sleep but the glimpse of repugnance in her eyes for me was stealing my sleep. Turning to the side, her back was facing me, stinging me constantly, her negligence was becoming unbearable for me. Poking her back, I called her in a low voice. 'Hey, hey, are you awake…?" 'What?" Groaning at my poking, she turned to face me, frowning that I woke her up but she had stolen my lull. 'Are you angry with me?" I asked innocently, making a disquiet face, holding my hand out for her to hold. She looked at my face for two seconds before taking my hand and putting it under her head. 'I guess I am…" Humming, she scooted closer, curling into my arms to give me the peace I lost, loosening the agonizing grip on my distress. 'Just talking about old days with Asad made me feel this way, those days, that sight flashed before my eyes and I couldn't control myself from not getting furious." Whispering, she cupped my cheek, making me stare back into her, mesmerized, leading me to the point of no return. She became more important than my own breaths. 'I see…" Curling my lips upwards in relief, I sighed, encasing her in my arms to never leave her ever, closing my eyes, hugging her tightly. 'I am sorry I know we are supposed to put it behind now but..- Leave it, I shouldn't have told him in the-" She muttered, shaking her head but I trusted the swear Sofia gave to Asad. 'It's okay. Complete the tale." I mumbled, cuddling with her. 'What?" She was taken aback Smiling, I kissed her neck affectionately, locking her body in my arms, sensing how perfect and right it felt. 'I want you to complete the tale. If our story is notorious then let it be, even if it was not a perfect tale, even if it was miserable but it's ‘our' tale, Eileen, and I treasure it." Pouring all my emotions in my whisper, I was ready to let the world know how she brought me to my knees. In fact- If bowing to gain her was required then it was worth it. 'When did you learn such talks?" We both chuckled at my unforeseen enunciation, I didn't expect this either but I just hummed, cuddling to her as we both went to sleep.