81- Embracing My Protector

After Nathaniel left, we went to our room. Most of his talks went over Eileen's head but honestly she was surprised that I took his help to keep me alive too. Giving her another proof of my love. She cannot imagine what I could do for her. We were in our room, Eileen came behind me and hugged me, feeling so small compared to me. "You seem better. Are you okay now?" Her soft voice came, glancing from the side to catch a glimpse of my face. "Hmm. I have finally caught the culprit." Humming, I nodded, turning to her and getting on the bed. "Really? Who is it?" She asked hastily. With a serious face, I told her, "Dave." I told Eileen everything, how his jealousy led us here, the anguish which took away my own brother from me. I could never forget that pain or my remorse. "I couldn't believe he did this to us. You trusted him so deeply and that dog took advantage of you. I am so disgusted with him. How could he do this?" She growled, utterly repulsed like me to hear everything. "Don't worry, I will give him the worst outcome." I growled, curling my hands in fist. Growling back, she nodded, not trying to stop me too, "I want to do it too. He deserves it. What faults did our Ruben have?" "I will." Nodding, I gathered all my courage, knowing if I want to protect my family then I must remain the way I am now. With a silence we both laid down to sleep, she took my arm and rested it under her head and turned to me, holding my shirt. "Sebastian..." Her concerned resonance came. "Hmm?" "Now that you have found his killer. You can rest now." Whispering, she brought her hand upward, making my look at her worried face. "Not yet." "I am so worried about you. Ever since Ruben died, you haven't shed a single tear. I know you want to." She continued, cupping my cheek, pitying my state. She was well aware of the pain I was carrying in my chest but I wanted to burn. Sighing, I pulled her closer, embracing her to gain energy to move forward for now, "I need your embrace just as much. Stay in my arms to give me strength to continue." She opened her mouth to argue but stopped and agreed, holding me firmly to give me a temporary equanimity before I lost my heart to agony. And the following day, not caring about anything in my life, I tied Dave to that very room where I lost my sanity. The room where I first screamed and couldn't stop it afterwards anymore. The room where it all started. He was tied, it was a while since I personally tortured someone myself but I wanted to give him the worst outcome. "Boss, Plague Doctor is here." Jacob informed me, not bothering to look at his brother. He knew he was here for his own faults. "He hadn't left yet?" I asked, narrowing my eyes. "No. Amanda is dying to witness how you are going to do it." Nathaniel came with Amanda, constantly glaring at her for causing him the trouble to be here. "No. I want to do it alone." I demanded. "Boss, please." She whispered to Nathaniel. "That will compensate for your fee. Still not?" He ordered, sighing, pinching the bridge of his nose. He was canceling his fees for the sake of his subordinate? No wonder they are so loyal to him. "Fine." "Go. I will be outside with De Villiers." He growled and walked away quickly but she smiled, "Thanks, Boss. You are the best~" She blew a kiss but ignoring her, he left. Leaving the two of us alone. I glared at her but she returned a strange smile, she was not afraid or thrilled, she was... happy. "I won't bother you, I just want to see how to make the person who hurts you the most suffer. How to torture the one you called your own." Whispering, she sat in the corner, putting her one leg up and resting her chin on it, watching me with fascination. Ignoring her, I turned to Dave and gave him the most torrenting death, I didn't let him, I let his scars bleed. I cut off his fingers, first ripped their nails and then cut them, let them sting, making him scream badly, praying for death so badly and my brother's image came before me. "Kill... me... please..." He shot him. Five times. What wrong did he do? Why my Brother? For once I was giving life a chance, I wanted to live. Who would have thought that side hug was going to be the last hug I gave him? 'I don't want to go back anymore. I am tired of being away from everyone.' And now you are so far from us that you could never return. I am sorry, I am so sorry, my beloved brother. I didn't want that to last long anymore. I wanted to kill him so badly that I hurt him to the point he couldn't take it anymore and he almost died eventually due to blood loss. "I won't let you die like that, motherfucker." Growling, I moved back. A tear rolled down my cheek when I was glaring at his body, pouring all my anger in my glare, resenting him so deeply as I grabbed my gun and shot him where exactly he shot my brother. Tears filled my eyes, I was devastated, shooting him five times. He died at one but I keep shooting. The sound of it gave me an unknown pleasure. Losing my mind, agonized beyond extents. After being done, I remained motionless until her voice came. She showed not a single reaction all this time, only staring without even blinking. "Was it... pleasurable? Or tranquilizing?" "Both." Breathless, I threw the gun in my hand away, taking a step back. "Feels good, doesn't it? To kill the one you trusted the most and that person betrays your trust." She asked, looking up at me vaguely. "Depends." Exhaling, I moved back and began to wash my bloody hand. I didn't want to touch Eileen with those hands. "Are you referring to Nathaniel?" I asked, intrigued to know who she was referring to. "Obviously not. He was the one who saved me, gave me a new life. I trusted someone this deeply too once, he deceived me, did the worst, killed my baby. Watching him die was satisfactory. It felt light." She whispered, curling her lips upwards. Exhaling deeply before getting down and stretching her arms by seeing in the same position for hours. "From experience, I would say, crying in the arms of your protector would give you solace." She smiled softly, coming closer to inspect Dave's body. "Is that why you are so loyal to him even if he scolds you all the time?" I asked, raising my brow and she nodded, a smile growing wider. "I can lay my life for my Boss. And not only me, all of us. He had come a very long way. You had the family support at least, Boss built this name and empire from dust. I respect him." She sighed, straightening her back and taking deep breaths, regaining her posture. The reason we all accepted him as the number one was because he proved it. He gained that position after countless hardships. I agree with that too. We both walked out from the basement, I ordered one of my people to clean the place and walked out where Nathaniel was waiting for Amanda. "Was that a show that you witnessed till the end? We are late because of you." Nathaniel scolded her again but she gained her seductive demeanor. "Oh, come on, Boss. How can I miss this opportunity?" She smirked. "Let's go now." He sighed as they were about to leave but Amanda turned to me. "Hope you can now move forward and continue your family." Nathaniel said and I was taken aback to think how he knew. "How do you..." Pausing, my mouth gaped. "Just a hunch but your reaction confirmed it. Congratulations." He smirked, waving his index finger with me. And I almost forgot about it. I was thinking about it when all of it happened. I was living the most beautiful moment of my life and Dave razed it completely. "Thanks..." Humming, I looked down, feeling somehow empty. I didn't know how to feel about it but not letting my mind dive deeper into my thoughts, Amanda called. "Remember my words, you will feel better." She whispered sincerely and left with everyone, leaving my domain and I prayed for the day where I have to take his protection and never come again. I hated it. I have my value as the Black Death, I didn't want him to smear that. But hearing her words, I began to ponder about them deeply. "Embrace my protector...huh?" And upon hearing that word, at first I thought who could protect me and the very second the name of that person came to my mind instantly. Eileen. Exhaling, I looked at the sky. I knew I was never a good or exemplary brother but I loved him deeply. Too much. I couldn't tell him that and now I could never do it. But, After a devilishly long time, someone's scream provided me solace. It was satisfactory. Killing him soothed me. 'I know I couldn't do much for you but that was all I could do for you. I avenged your death, my dearest brother.'